Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Stuck in a Rut

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 I feel so lost. I don't know what I should be doing with my life. Yeah, I have a job, a daughter, a family. But what am I here for? I graduated high school. Started college but didn't finish. Sure I want to go back, but to do WHAT? I got married to the "one" I thought I would be with for the rest of my life. That ended in a divorce. That's a whole nother loooong story. So now I live back at home with my parents and daughter. I know big loser huh... I work, go home, take care of Little Miss Priss, put her to bed and then go to bed. I don't go out. I don't party. It's been many months since I have even had an alcoholic drink. And that's pretty much what I do. My job is ok, but not that satisfying. I sit at a desk all day and most of the time I am bored out of my mind. I have dated since my divorce but have yet to find anyone worth spending my time on. I always end up wanting more than what that person is willing to give. I just want to be happy with who I am, what I'm doing/working for/towards, have my daughter well taken care of, be self sufficient and not be stuck in such a rut. I know, I know.... I should stop complaining and get out there an DO something to fix it, but WHAT? How do I even start? Where do I start?

2 comments:

Sandra said...

At the risk of sounding cliché, life just has a way of working itself out. The hardest thing to do is wait. I give you a lot of credit though for voicing your disssatisfaction and fears. It's never to late to go back to college. I went back in my late 30s and am currenly pursuing a nursing degree.

ashley @ divorced and 21 said...

why arent we friends on facebook?